Wonderful news for me, I get to stay part time for much longer! As August draws to a close, I knew my part time days here at work were numbered. September marks the beginnings of going back full time, at least until March next year. My job position and description is just not a part-time gig, and it's taken a lot of proving and hard work on my part to show that it can be done. When I finally approached my boss about it yesterday, he agreed to let me continue on my part time status indefinitely.
I am a working mom, and yes, I love my job, but I have to admit that being home raising my child has a far greater draw. Scratch that--it's not really a draw as as it is a must. In fact, I don't think my heart and spirit will let me have a choice in the matter, it's just something I feel I have to do, enough so that when I can't be mom, the difficulty of it is greater than I can bear. Any love I might feel for my career goes right out the window. For those of you who can relate, it's a ridiculous calling in many ways. Some would ask, why on earth I would give up the relative peace and quiet of my desk/office artist job for a toddler in the throes of his terrible twos? I don't know, because I am his mom, I guess, and maybe I'm a glutton for punishment but I don't want it any other way. I guess I just prefer the rewards that come in small packages--smiles, hugs, declarations of love, and seeing my little one grow, learn and develop.
For now, I'll happily take what I can get, which is 3 days at work, the rest of it off. Maybe someday soon (God willing) it will be 5 days a week. Will I question my sanity for that decision? Probably, yes. Regret? definitely, certainly, no.
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